The New Normal

Being diagnosed with a chronic illness is tough. Then coming to terms with the changes in your body is a whole other can of worms. I have been in denial for a year now. A year of weigh gain, swelling, unable to bear wearing regular clothes. I held on to too much. 

This me, the me that is now who deserves space. So I am going to choose to let go of the past image in my mind of what "me" I should be. Okay, that means leggings instead of jeans. Elastic waists instead of buttons and zippers. No more stilettos. 

Is this permanent? I don't know. Modern medicine is working on new treatments and I am waiting on a pre-auth to start a new drug. Either way I am me, letting go of the past. I just have no room for it.

Peldyn

Metamorphosis

As I go through this journey of life one thing I have learned is, nothing is static.

The old me in "mom jeans" would not be so surprised at the new me in leggings and comfy tops. Even she was changing.

While I miss my retro-fashion clothes and I miss my body that did not hurt, I embrace my life and my existence. 

As the New Year begins I give thanks to my many friends and family who have made this journey with me. I am also grateful for the many animals that share my life. I decided not to make any resolutions this year other than to do only what gives joy. 

May you all have joy this year.

Peldyn